Here I Put it in My Hole

 As these issues periodically rise up, and eventually disappear, I figure they are longterm effects of my eating disorder, but as S said maybe it's because of what I'm eating. I think it could just as well be both. Today for instance I have eaten 3 bowls of the remaining spaghetti, and also a fig cookie. No pains whatsoever today, as they've been gradually disappearing the past couple days. While in NY, I have been eating differently because the different set up here, and I have been doing a little emotional eating, although I did that back home too. So I may have been eating more carbs - maybe - but I have also been trying to keep a balanced diet, given the general veganism I practice.  But I'll keep posting anyway, just to see if this happens again soon- it will eventually. (I also happened to be stressed a lot last week because of school, though right now I'm getting more and more ahead of the class schedule and am trying to take control of the emotions which con...

 Hello.... no pains today...... had a coffee I bought at the grocery store... then a beer... some potato chips, yogurt, a lil avocado..... some sandwiches... ramen w some kale.... snacks here and there.... I haven't had any pain that I remember. But I'm a bit wary right now- bowl of spaghetti   an apple My gut feels uneasy but no pain or discomfort ... I'm gonna have some more spaghetti.   

 woke up w/ some vague discomfort in lower bowels, friend gave me some veg dumplings and I ate them, I dont think it really had much of an impact had a cider, started getting heartburn after ate half avocado w/ tortilla chips slight prickling in left side chips & yogurt, tortilla w avocado, kale, vegan cheese  still have heartburn, not a lot going on in abdomen   

 Matcha, 2 cans o beer, SNACKS No pain sandwich no pain Ended up eating various things, like potatoe chips, bread, tortilla, hummus, vegan cheese, apple,  I bought some bread that wasnt sourdough though. Not sure what exactly, its like , not white No pains Writing this on day 7 though, and starting off with some small discomfort in me bowels, have only had a matcha   

 I woke up this morning and ate some more of that tofu broccoli and rice, fell asleep... woke up w/ some cramping... now I don't have it anymore but am getting hungery... I'm actually starting to feel pretty depressed so feel like cramming my hole..... 2 bananas dull shooting pain arising cramping, some prickliness had an apple n some pnut butter, no change in pain; moved to underlying pressure  cup of tea w/ matcha  Ate tasty potatoes, kale, a few lil tomatoes in mustard ketchup mayonnaise ... no increase in pain, but still a pressure and light cramping Now for another snack..... some oat peanut butter bars...... mm.....  tummy's a lil prickly. . . . . . .    It's the end of the day and I just had some oatmeal, my stummy's been very gently prickly this whole time though.  Good night  dear blog

 No pains  ate 2 shots of vodka tofu broccoli white rice some pnut butter sandwich various snacks  avocado 

 Today I woke up with vague cramp,  I have eaten now an oreo churro, a few tortillas chips w/ salsa, a couple glasses of kombucha, and some matcha. My gut feels ok but I still feel like there's some pain lurking there. Maybe if I ate a meal right now it would resurface. But I am waiting -  I just ate some mexican french fries w/ rice & cheese & beans & stuff - now my gut starting to feel a little ugly, but not sure if just the anticipation...?  I am also not feeling mentally well right now because of school and life in general (earlier this morning I was contemplating suicide, in passing though and just depressed about my prospects in capitalism) There is a more distinct shooting pain fading in and out beneath my belly button area. I could not resist the temptation of some mexican food because I was stressing and depressing. Now I am feeling the wrath of the Food Bezlebub ... pains subside but still there... I'm still hungry for more of that Mexican food ...

 Hello Blogetariat, today I ate some food. Let's see, I had 1 beer, some tortilla chips w/ salsa, 3 tacos of beans and avocado. I have not had any pain. Last night I had some pain. I said fuck it and I ate some polenta w/ garbanzos anyway, but it didn't hurt much longer afterwards, strangely. I also ate some crackers and some other snacks last night. But the night has only begun , let's get nasty

 Day 1 of Peter's Food Quest! Let's go!